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christian counseling today

VOL. 22 NO. 1

Disclaimer: while pornography addiction is

present for both men and women, this article

focuses on the experiences of men who struggle

with pornography and their wives who have been

betrayed, simply because this is the relational

dynamic we counsel at our center. As a male

recovering from sexual addiction, Mark chose

to work only with a male population of sexual

addicts… and Debbie’s expertise was driven by

her experience as a betrayed spouse. We share

here from our own strengths and life experiences.

We must first understand how pornography

effects marriage and, inherently, marital

sexuality. Jesus teaches us in Matthew 5:28 that

looking lustfully at another woman is an act of

adultery. From this we must accept that “just

looking” at pornographic images is adultery.

When a pornography addict engages in sexuality

with his spouse, he is bringing thousands of

other images into the bedroom. Over time, he

will find that he cannot function or “perform”

without allowing his mind to be aroused by

those images. He is, therefore, not able to be

present. Since masturbation has been the regular

result of looking at porn, he may also not be

able to achieve or sustain an erection. This has

come to be called “Pornography Induced Erectile

Dysfunction.” The spouse will sense the addict’s

emotional absence and often be frustrated

with the sexual experience. All too often, she

will personalize this as being about her, her

attractiveness, or her sexual abilities.

When we talk with couples who first come

to us with pornography addiction or infidelity

issues, struggles with sexuality and feeling

disconnected have often been present for a

very long time. Neither one of them has had

the ability to talk about the feelings and beliefs

that accompany that tension. We believe both

spouses share similar vision for their relationship:

emotional and spiritual intimacy and healthy

sexuality. And along the way, sex—how often, who initiates, how

passionate it has been, and what kind of closeness is experienced before

or after—has led to feelings of sadness, frustration, anger, rejection and

beliefs that, “I am not loved.” Of course, these emotions and perceptions

transpire with little communication.

An Addict’s Distorted Messages and Core Beliefs

Addicts confuse sex and love. They hold a core belief that sex is equal

to love. Therefore, they believe that if their spouses love them, they will

always be willing to engage in sexuality. Sex, they believe, is the way they

are affirmed, accepted, loved, and nurtured. Addicts will interpret any

touch and sexualize it, as they have lost the ability to appreciate healthy,

non-sexual touch as being life sustaining. The arguments that we hear in

our counseling office about sexuality are often based on this fundamental

confusion and fear. In short, the pornography addiction will be brought

into the bedroom in several different ways and does create significant

problems.

Sex addicts also have negative core beliefs about themselves. Many

of them are the survivors of early life trauma. This can take two forms.

They can be invaded sexually, physically, and emotionally. We believe

that while invasion is true for some addicts, the second form of trauma is

pervasive. Over our years of experience with addicts, we have not known

one who has not been abandoned or neglected of his/her basic needs and

desires. They believe: “I am bad and worthless,” that “No one will love

me as I am,” and “No one will take care of my needs except me.” Many

have said that addicts have an “intimacy disorder.” This can show up as

being avoidant. It can also show up in anxiously pursuing relationships. In

addition to the neurochemical high of sexuality, addicts are on a “quest” to

find love and nurture.

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A Spouse’s Distorted Messages and Core Beliefs

We have often heard it said that sexual addiction is uniquely painful to a

spouse because it seems so personal. Unlike other addictions to alcohol,

drugs, gambling or food, a husband’s use of pornography shatters the core

beliefs of most wives on a personal level. Her thinking about herself, ability

to trust, and vulnerability to live with someone who has broken marriage

vows and withheld the truth leaves her with great pain. She can quickly

start believing that there is something wrong with her, that she will never

be enough, that she will never be able to trust her spouse again, and that

her life is ruined. This shattering of her core beliefs is what creates the

trauma of pornography addiction.

Addicts confuse sex and love. They hold a core

belief that sex is equal to love. Therefore, they

believe that if their spouses love them, they will

always be willing to engage in sexuality.